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You Are Not Alone

 

I’m not changing the title of this blog because this is what I started today with. I’m usually not one to feel sorry for myself, but let’s be honest here, as far as the “Family” and “Friends” department goes, I’ve been let down a lot lately.

I don’t talk much about Family drama, it’s something that has been a part of my life since I was a little girl, but lately I have decided that my family are the people I choose to surround myself with and that I choose to love. It’s been a long journey for me coming to that realization, but I’ve gotten there.

I am a firm believe that when you put good and positive energy into your life good and positive energy come out of it. It just seems like the moment I committed to what I wanted to do and what I was going to do right now, things just started happening and moving so fast and I am so excited.

So let me tell you a little about my Day. It wasn’t that I hadn’t heard of the OAC Convention up until yesterday or anything, I just really didn’t think that me going was in the cards. Just the hotel room, flight and registration are costing nearly $1200. But as usual, things just sort of fall into place for me sometimes and Tom decided to help me fund part of the trip and I’m currently talking to SWMC to see if they will consider Sponsoring part of the cost of me going, so we’ll see what happens. I have a month to figure the rest out. LOL!

What I do know is that after my friend Ashli was through speaking with Stephanie at the OAC she was completely convinced that I needed to attend this Convention, so we’re moving things around to make it happen.

Next thing I know I’ve got hotel reservations, a plane reservation and my OAC registration is complete and I’m going to be gone for an entire MONTH between going to Dallas and going to Oakland… WHAT?!? It’s all good though, I’m totally excited about this and I feel like it’s a door opening for me in a direction that I want to go.

One of the things I have found myself passionate about this year during the Presidential Election is how my vote is going to affect Health Care and how whoever I put in office is going to decide to treat obesity in health care. This is a pretty big deal to me as a voter this year. So part of the OAC conference is going to be an advocacy program where they teach you how to advocate for obesity issues with your state legislature and such, and that coupled with a bunch of AMAZING lectures on topic so close to home for me, I’m just  so ready for this.

I’m so excited to meet other WLS people and I just sort of feel in a way like this is a little bit of my coming out party. I am so close to my Goal weight, this convention is literally a week after my 2 year anniversary of my Gastric Bypass on 10-19-2010.

I think I need to head over to the TT Forums and peak my head in and see if anyone else there is going. Might be an opportunity for me to make new friends!  Today was one of those days where I was having to remind myself that I’m not alone and that I am surrounded by alot of people that love and care about me, it just sucks sometimes that they are so far away. Ashli being in Kansas City and Debby being in San Jose just sucks, my two best friends in the entire world and I don’t see them nearly enough. But today just when I was struggling with that feeling, here comes this great news about this great opportunity to meet  bunch of new people! I am sooOOOO excited about this Convention!

Exercise: I left the house today intending to take a nice long walk and spend some time with my Father. It just seemed like there has been a lot I hadn’t got to share with him yet since I hadn’t been outdoors exercising yet since my last skin removal surgery on 8-2-12. I got about a mile and half out and I just couldn’t take it anymore, I had to run a bit. So I let myself run the Loop in the center of town here which is about 1.5 miles doing interval runs where I ran for one song and walked for another. My total for the day was 5.39 miles with an average pace of 15:30 min/mi and a max pace for 4:59min/mi during my run times. For those interested in distance that’s an average pace of 3.87mi/hr and a max pace of 12.03 mi/hr when I’m actually running. This is a far cry from my 5 hour miles I was getting pre skin removal Op #2 but I’ll get back there. Likely just in time to have surgery #3 but that’s okay, it’s in the plan. I will say that running post skin removal is amazing and I really just can’t wait to see what my body feels like after I get this skin of my thighs now.

Food:

  • Breakfast: Coffee & Protein Bar
  • Lunch: Multigrain Lean Pocket
  • Dinner: Red Lobster!
  • Snack: Popchips & Humus
Please remember this probably would not be a good food selection at all if you are a post bariatric surgery patient who avoids carbs and breads. I added some whole and multigrains back into my diet per the suggestion of my Nutritionist based on how much I exercise.

Red Lobster Dinning Tip! When I eat at Red Lobster I never order a meal! I always pick a protein that I can add on to someone else’s meal, like tonight I chose the $8.99 Snow Crab Leg addition to Jason’s Steak and Shrimp.  I ordered a Garden Salad with their lowcal raspberry vinaigrette dressing along with some blue cheese dressing on the side. I mix about ½ Tablespoon of both together and use that on my salad along with some ground pepper. I stole a bite or two of Jason’s steak, passed on his way too buttery looking shrimp, and snagged a couple of the bacon wrapped scallops off the appetizer he ordered. Oh, I also brought home the leftovers, about 2 crab legs, and the other to scallops that were left on the appetizer plate. Lunch tomorrow sounds like a crab and scallop taco! Gotta use those leftovers post WLS!

 

Chris Powell Responds to my Letter

I was going to write a blog today about this amazing experience I had in the gym yesterday…. But then I woke up this morning to A Letter from Chris Powell, and well, I will just have to share that amazing gym experience later, but it’s now on my list of things to blog about!

Imagine my surprise when the first thing I see this morning when I log into Facebook is…

Chris Powell commented on my link!

Chris Powell commented on my link! My heart started racing… so I went to see what it said…

Another click and my heart stopped as I realized that Chris Powell had PERSONALLY responded to ME! To ME! To little old insignificant x-fat girl ME! But when I read what he had to say…. OMG I started jumping up and down, screeching with excitement, going “HE said I’m AMAZING! HE said HE is proud of ME! OMG HE actually wrote ME back!”  I mean with someone like Chris Powell you expect that they will be able to touch your life the way they do others, but you NEVER expect that you will be able to touch theirs enough to get them to notice you and to get a response like this…

Chris Powell's Response to my Letter

Chris Powell’s response to my “Letter to Chris Powell”

About two and half years ago when this journey began I had never watched Extreme Makeover Weight Loss Edition, I didn’t really know anything about Chris Powell, and honestly as far as famous trainers go, I knew Bob Harper and Jillian Michaels from watching the Biggest Loser a few times and that was about it.

Once I had my Gastric Bypass and my life became so focused on Weight Loss, being healthy and exercising, I started watching a lot more shows. I watched Ruby, I watched the documentaries on people that had had Gastric Bypass and Skin removal surgeries on cable and I started watching Extreme Makeover Weight Loss Edition with Chris Powell.

From the beginning I just saw Chris Powell as someone that stood out among the masses. The way that he dealt with people, there was genuineness there that I didn’t see on a lot of other shows about people that were morbidly obese and trying to lose weight.  The one thing I noticed more than anything was that Chris seemed to key in on not just the food and exercise aspect of weight loss, but the emotional journey that it is as well.

That’s one thing a lot of people don’t understand about extreme weight loss. For me losing the weight wasn’t just about losing the weight and being healthy, it was about reclaiming my life as my own. Once I realized that my weight was a huge self-defense mechanism to make sure that people didn’t hurt me, I realized that it hadn’t really protected me at all. In fact, hiding behind weight got me hurt a lot more just in the way people’s eyes bugged out when they looked at me, or the shock on their face as they walked by me and realized how big I was. Not to mention the rude comments from people in cars driving by you when you are walking down the street. And from a health standpoint, it never did anything but hurt me. Diabetic and taking insulin 3x a day in my 20s, Sleep Apnea, High Blood Pressure, Sever Edema, Skin Disorders, rashes and yeast infections in the crevices of my body that I couldn’t keep dry… the medical complications were endless.

Exited about Chris Powell response

My text to my BFF and Soul Sister Debby Aka “Tora” about Chris Powell’s response!

But once you get all that weight off, you are faced with whole new issues. The excess skin issues I honestly feel are even more emotionally hard to deal with that the fat was. In fact I’ve heard of women that purposely sabotage their weight loss when they start to face the excess skin issues because they decide they would rather be big and tight that skinny and wrinkly and saggy. For me, the skin wasn’t so much about how I looked; it was about not being able to truly see what I had accomplished. It was this feeling, that even after fighting so hard to lose all that weight, the people who had abused me enough to make me turn to food and being heavy as a means to protect myself still seemed to have concurred me. For me, reaching the end of my journey, being able to look in the mirror and see a Healthy, Fit and Slender me, meant I was reclaiming control of my life from the people that once took it from me. I have one more surgery left to go, but I feel that goal is nearly accomplished now. One of the hardest parts of the last year for me has been that my Father was not here to see the end of a journey I began to help put his mind at ease about my Health. I wanted my Father to know that I was going to be OK. The fact that he had to leave me before I finished and that he wasn’t really in any condition to understand how much I had truly achieved even when he saw me after the first stroke had hit him in January. It was just hard for me to never have my Father be able to say to me, “I’m proud of you,” – There have been a lot of people that have said those words, Tom, Jason, Heather, my Mother, My best friends Debby and Ashli, and while they all mean so much to me, it never was quite the same as having my Father say it. In fact right after I woke Heather up to tell her and  Jason a text to tell him next I sent a text to my BFF and Soul Sister Debby AKA “Tora” to tell her! After that I called Ashli to tell her but of course she didn’t answer her phone as usual. Next I posted all about it on Facebook, Twitter, Updated my “Letter to Chris Powell” Page with his response. And later called my Aunt Bev to tell her about it too!

Today when I read Chris Powell’s Letter to me it brought tears to my eyes. I think that having Chris Powell himself tell me that I am amazing and that he is proud of me, is probably about the closest thing to having my Father say it to me. And you know, I do believe that my Dad is still out there somewhere, watching over me, anytime something amazing to me happens I always find myself wanting to go for a run and talk to my Father and say, “Thanks Dad, for still looking out for me from wherever you are.”

Today was a pretty amazing day for me. All around. I feel inspired, I feel like I am headed in the right direction. Everyone once in a while Heather and I will eat Chinese food. It’s a good healthy option for me once in a while as long as I stick to something like green bean chicken or mushroom chicken. I have to make sure the protein is lean, not breaded and that it’s cooked in healthy oils. Anytime we’ve had Chineese food since I’ve decided to move forward on this buiness I have kept my the fortune in my cookie and let Heather eat it….  So far I have….

“Fame and Fortune are coming your way.”

“Your Confidence will lead you to Sucess.”

I don’t care about Fame or Fortune, but today I definitely feel like I’m headed towards success. Who’s coming with me?

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