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How NKOTB Saved my Life – 2013 Tour Announced!


Okay that’s it – I can’t hold back, I have to say it again, I LOVE 2013 so far.

So far this year has been freaking amazing AND it just gets better.

But first, you have to understand why this is so amazing to me.

I had a pretty bad childhood, I’m honest about that, but one thing that I was never lacking was toys. I was spoiled rotten; my parents let me have just about anything my little heart desired.

The first time I remember hearing them on the radio I was in the 6th grade and I had just gotten a big stereo for my bedroom; the kind that had two cassette tapes on the front, a record player on top and played AM/FM stations. CDs weren’t a thing yet. His voice sang out over the radio singing “I’ll be loving you forever.” and from that very moment I was in love. Jordan Knight, New Kids on the Block.

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I was that girl who was so in love with NKOTB that I bought every Teen Beat, Bop or whatever magazine their pictures where in and my entire bedroom walls with no room left at all was wallpapered in their 8×10 Magazine shots and photos. I had the baseball cards, the dolls the buttons, if you could buy it with New Kids on the Block on it, I got it. I went to any and every concert my parents would drive me to. I’d go to the same concert three nights in a row in different areas of California that my parents were willing to drive me to in order to see them.

My cousins and I made a video called “The New Babes on the Block” which was this horrible home video of us pretending we were cool and telling them how much we loved them and pretending to be interviewed by someone like Oprah about how we were their biggest fans. It was amazing. I watched every interview they did, every appearance, I even watched their cartoon. Loving NKOTB is honestly one of the highlights of that time of my life.

It was a horrible time for me. I was the chubby little girl who was just starting to like boys and I was about to embark on a time in my life I call the rejection period. I felt rejected by everyone, boys that didn’t pay attention to me, popular girls that didn’t want to be my friend, my dysfunctional family, the biological mother that didn’t want me.  But obsessing on New Kids on the Block made it all better for me. Nobody else had to love me, I had them. I can honestly say that is the first time I can recall my escapism mechanism kicking into high gear. I spent hours in my bedroom having a relationship with Danny, Donnie, Joe, Jon and Jordan.


Those boys were with me whether they realized it or not through some of the hardest moments of my life. They were there when I found out that my grandmother had knowingly married a child molester, they were there the first time I kissed a boy, they were there when I lost my virginity, and the first time I got my heart broken. They were there when my biological mom came back into my life and wanted me to do drugs and take care of her two new kids. And their anti-drug stance was probably one of the major reasons I didn’t end up following that path. They were there the first time I cut myself on purpose. They were there the first time I tried to kill myself.  Music has always been something that I turn to when I am lost and confused and hurt, I can just listen to a song that I related too and get lost in it. I associate certain songs with certain times of my life. These boys gave me that coping mechanism and never even knew it.

Now fast forward a bit. New Kids on the Block splits, they are gone, life goes on, and I triumph through but now I’m at this point where I weigh over 400 lbs  I’m 32 years old, and suddenly there is an announcement that NKOTB is reuniting and going back on tour. Their new album comes out and Danny Wood, realizing that a lot of their fans are out of shape and fallen into the trap of obesity starts encouraging their fans through his own love for working out.


And when I first started exercising and it sucked, and I weighed 400 lb. and my body wouldn’t let me do much at all. It would take me over 40 minutes to walk a mile on the treadmill they kept me company with their music. I had their new album on repeat over and over it was the only thing I listened to when I exercised for months and months and months. Until I met P!nk and Adele, then I started sharing space on my play list for other favorites.  A year later, after attending their reunion concert in Tacoma Washington, my best friends husband Colin, bought us tickets to their Concord CA concert. I needed to go to CA and I weighed 420lbs. I ended up having to take a train because I couldn’t afford to buy two seats on a plane. I had to sit in the handicap section because of the concern of me not fitting through the stairwell. I never went anywhere anymore, but for those five men I’d still muster up the courage to get to their concert. It was amazing; we were in like the 6th row. My friend and I wore shirts that said “My Freebie List: #1 Jordan Knight” Tora’s said Joey McIntyre of course.  These boys whether they realized it or not, got me out of my depressed 400 lb. shut in phase.

These five men once again, managed to be there with me through some of the most important moments of my life.  I remember listening to their album on the headphones in the hospital the night after my gastric bypass.  I remember listening to them when my marriage was falling apart.  They were there when I could hardly walk a mile, and they were there when I could run one for the first time.

I talk about something I call “Forever Moments” Things that happen in our life that we will never forget, things that happen that are etched into who we are forever. These five men are part of my life and they don’t even know it. Some people touch our lives without ever realizing it and some people save our lives and never know it.

A brand new NKTOB Album is coming out. A new tour! 2013 is SoooOOoooO my year, I’ll have that album the moment it comes out, they will be with me as I train for my first half marathon this year and I’ll be at any concert I can get too! I’d tour the whole damn country with them if I could afford to follow them around like the Blockhead Groupie I am.


I won an iPad you could win an iPad Mini


Man I have this news that I want to share with you guys so bad it is quite literally making me burst at the seams that I CANNOT tell you yet. It really sucks when you have huge huge epic news and you can’t spit it out, especially when you are me, because you all know how I am, tell it like it is, call it like I see it, I am the type to just blurt something out. Yeah, this is hard, but it should only be a day or two….

In the meantime guess what arrived at my house today! It’s really been an amazing day for me! Today my new iPad arrived! It’s the prize I won from participating in the OAC’s Video Testimonial Contest after attending the First Inaugural Your Weight Matters Convention in Dallas 2012. That Convention was such a life changing moment for me, I am so glad I went, doing a video testimonial was the least I could do! Winning a brand new 16GB iPad is an AMAZING prize though. See it pays to enter these contests.

HalloweenSpeaking of Contests! Have you heard about the Flab to Fabulous Pageant? Okay seriously, I love this idea, like in a big way. Maybe some of you remember that for Halloween I dressed up as “Ms. Onderland.” I used my 17-year-old step daughters Alice Costume from last year. Added some blood and bandages, a beauty crown and a sash and dressed up as Mr. Onderland for the OAC Halloween themed party. Heather went to the Convention with me and so she went dressed as my bloody plastic surgeon. My arms were wrapped up like I had just had a brachioplasty and all. I chose that costume part as a joke and part because I really thought the idea of a little mini beauty pageant as part of one of these WLS get together would be a fun thing to do. I mean what an opportunity, for someone like me, who has been overweight most of their life to have a chance at being crowned a beauty queen.  Yes, I love this idea.

crown-contest-ipad-mini-250But I am getting off track with how cool I think this idea is and forgetting the important part… right now they are having a contest. All you have to do is go to their page and vote on which style of crown they are going to use for Mr. and Mrs. Fabulous Pageant. The contest runs through February 9th, you can vote once a day, and each time you vote you are entered to win an iPad Mini. Okay seriously, I will be entering every day, and if I take home that iPad Mini because not enough of you bothered to go click on a crown each day and let me walk away with this prize I’m gonna give you guys a big old ration of crap. These kinds of contests are easy breezy and I know how much MANY of my WLS friends would LOVE an iPad Mini, me included! Hey I like gadgets! Anyways, go vote on which crown Mr. and Ms. Fabulous will wear.

Heck while you are there, maybe sign up for the Pageant.  There are a lot of beautiful women out there. Heck just the yesterday Bariatric Guru had a contest on her Facebook Page where she had people post their before and after photos, I have seen first-hand how beautiful and handsome some of you ladies and gentlemen are. You might be the next Mr. or Ms. Fabulous and win $25,000 in prizes.


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