In Sex, Love and Obesity Part 34 we discussed how trauma bonding and a learned behavior pattern of Peter being the person that made me feel better after he had done something to hurt me had left me in a position where I felt like I needed an apology from Peter in order to to find closure on the chapters of my life that had involved him. For quite some time, I thought that [...]
In part 33 of Sex Love and Obesity, Peter had broken up with me and in the wake of his exit from my life, I had found a newfound freedom. I wish I could tell you that the moment Peter walked out the door everything was suddenly fine. But that’s not quite how it works. When you end up in a relationship with someone that is emotionally abusive to you, there are consequences you [...]
In Sex Love and Obesity Part 32 I hinted that the end of mine and Peter's relationship wasn't nearly as dramatic as I had expected it would be. Truthfully, after nearly two years of constant and consistent drama, the ending was sort of anti-climactic. It was the week of Peter's birthday. His birthday was on a Monday. Since we were both working all week, we had decided to celebrate his birthday the following weekend. [...]
When we left off in Sex, Love and Obesity Part 31 - I told you that Peter was about to realize I wasn't the person he needed me to be. I give a lot of credit to Peter for this. Because, if he hadn't left me, I might never have left him. I'm the type of person that stays around long after the expiration date on a relationship has passed. This is partly due [...]
In Sex Love and Obesity Part 30 - my finding out that Peter was having in an "innocent" online affair several months prior to us breaking up became a game changer for me. I felt betrayed. As a result, I started seeing Peter's love for me through a different perspective. I was depressed. Colder. Less affectionate. The rest of August is a big blur to me. Peter was trying hard to [...]
When we left of in Sex Love and Obesity Part 29 my new boyfriend's comment about Peter being a Narcissist lead me to start researching the subject. As a result, a lot of the experiences I had with Peter began making more sense. If you had told me someone was a Narcissist prior to this, I would have instantly thought of someone who is vain about their appearance. Someone who spends a lot of [...]
In Sex Love and Obesity Part 28 - We left off with Peter and I getting back together. It was a mistake. One big giant mistake that I would never take back. Yes, you read that correctly. It was a mistake I don't regret making. I have no regrets. Because, if I hadn't made the choice to go back to Peter and gone through the next several months with him, I don't think I [...]
In Sex Love and Obesity part 27 I talked about the stupidest mistake I ever made. Calling Peter and asking him to come over. Looking back on it now, I realize how idiotic it was. But only because almost two years of learning more about myself and reclaiming my self-confidence has provided the necessary insight. About a week after making that phone Peter and I were officially back together. But before I tell that [...]
In Sex, Love and Obesity Part 26 I finally decided that I was going to find the courage to move out on my own. I was facing one of the biggest fears of my life. It was literally the scariest thing I've ever done. I cannot even begin to explain why being on my own was so frightening to me. But when you think about it, it's not hard to figure out. If you [...]
When we left of in Sex, Love and Obesity part 25 I was at a place where I began to recognize the pattern. Having too many loose threads in my life and too many possible love interests was making my already difficult struggle regaining control of my Dissociative Identity Disorder even harder. Although I recognized the pattern, fixing it wasn’t as easy as it would seem. For me to start tying up loose ends, parts of [...]
