Mental Health

22 04, 2019

Sex, Love and Obesity – Part 30 When The Mask Shattered

By |2019-04-23T15:56:19+00:00April 22nd, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

When we left of in Sex Love and Obesity Part 29 my new boyfriend's comment about Peter being a Narcissist lead me to start researching the subject. As a result, a lot of the experiences I had with Peter began making more sense. If you had told me someone was a Narcissist prior to this, I would have instantly thought of someone who is vain about their appearance. Someone who spends a lot of [...]

15 04, 2019

Sex, Love and Obesity Part 29 – Finding The Courage To Speak My Truths

By |2019-04-15T07:52:30+00:00April 15th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In Sex Love and Obesity Part 28 - We left off with Peter and I getting back together. It was a mistake. One big giant mistake that I would never take back. Yes, you read that correctly. It was a mistake I don't regret making. I have no regrets. Because, if I hadn't made the choice to go back to Peter and gone through the next several months with him, I don't think I [...]

8 04, 2019

Sex Love and Obesity Part 28 – A Jealous Little Fishy

By |2019-04-11T01:53:00+00:00April 8th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In Sex Love and Obesity part 27 I talked about the stupidest mistake I ever made. Calling Peter and asking him to come over. Looking back on it now, I realize how idiotic it was. But only because almost two years of learning more about myself and reclaiming my self-confidence has provided the necessary insight. About a week after making that phone Peter and I were officially back together. But before I tell that [...]

31 03, 2019

Sex, Love and Obesity Part 27 – The Stupidest Thing I Could Have Done

By |2019-03-31T10:35:08+00:00March 31st, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In Sex, Love and Obesity Part 26 I finally decided that I was going to find the courage to move out on my own. I was facing one of the biggest fears of my life. It was literally the scariest thing I've ever done. I cannot even begin to explain why being on my own was so frightening to me. But when you think about it, it's not hard to figure out. If you [...]

13 03, 2019

Sex, Love and Obesity Part 26 – Why Didn’t You Fight For Me?

By |2019-03-13T14:50:54+00:00March 13th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

When we left of in Sex, Love and Obesity part 25 I was at a place where I began to recognize the pattern. Having too many loose threads in my life and too many possible love interests was making my already difficult struggle regaining control of my Dissociative Identity Disorder even harder. Although I recognized the pattern, fixing it wasn’t as easy as it would seem. For me to start tying up loose ends, parts of [...]

4 03, 2019

Sex Love and Obesity Part 25 – Unraveling At The Seams

By |2019-03-04T12:43:48+00:00March 4th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In Sex, Love and Obesity Part 24 I discussed a relapse into my pleasure-seeking behaviors that happened while I was at a weight loss convention in Portland trying to deal with all the loose strings that existed in my life. Think of the life you live as a sweater that you wear. Mine had a lot of loose strings. If I didn't find a way to deal with them surely one of them was [...]

25 02, 2019

Sex, Love and Obesity Part 24 – Using Sex as a Drug

By |2019-03-03T10:02:51+00:00February 25th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In Sex Love and Obesity Part 23 I had a major slip in my decision making while attending a convention in Portland. In that moment, albeit unintentionally, I had lit a match to my life. The decisions I made in this over emotional state would quite literally start to burn down everything around me. I didn't recognize it yet but using sex as a go-to feel better drug was a problem. Let's [...]

18 02, 2019

Sex Love and Obesity Part 23 – Emotional Arson – F*ck it, Light a Match

By |2019-03-03T10:03:58+00:00February 18th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In Sex Love and Obesity Part 22 I introduced you to the concept of Dysfunctional Dissociation. Meaning, several different parts of me are making different decisions at different times and it's not working out well. I’m not always in agreement with those decisions. It had been about three weeks since I left the apartment with Peter in it. Three weeks of constant arguing with Peter over the phone and text messages [...]

11 02, 2019

Sex Love and Obesity Part 22 – Dysfunctionally Dissociative

By |2019-03-03T10:14:55+00:00February 11th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

Understanding Dissociative Identity Disorder and Dysfunctional Dissociation  When we left off in Sex Love and Obesity Part 21, my entire life when it came to sex, love and decisions that involved those two things was unraveling at the seams. Every part of me was going in a different direction. Each part of me wanted something distinctly different. If you read my Dissociative Identity Disorder - Six Women One Mind blog, you'll understand [...]

4 02, 2019

Grief. Recovering from aftershocks.

By |2019-02-04T14:58:52+00:00February 4th, 2019|My Story, Bariatric Wellness, Life After Weight Loss|0 Comments

Grief can literally knock the wind right out of you. Grief is a hard emotion to deal with. Dealing with loss is difficult, we all do it in our own way. The strange thing about grief is that it sneaks up on you in little ways you're not expecting. When it does, it can knock the breath right out of you. This past Friday afternoon I found myself huddled on the floor [...]