Self-Worth

25 05, 2019

Sex Love And Obesity Part 33 – Free From My Emotional Cage

By |2019-05-25T07:08:24-04:00May 25th, 2019|My Story, Life After Weight Loss, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In Sex Love and Obesity Part 32 I hinted that the end of mine and Peter's relationship wasn't nearly as dramatic as I had expected it would be. Truthfully, after nearly two years of constant and consistent drama, the ending was sort of anti-climactic. It was the week of Peter's birthday. His birthday was on a Monday. Since we were both working all week, we had decided to celebrate his birthday the following weekend. [...]

18 05, 2019

Sex, Love and Obesity Part 32 – Going In Opposite Directions

By |2019-05-19T08:36:24-04:00May 18th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

When we left off in Sex, Love and Obesity Part 31 - I told you that Peter was about to realize I wasn't the person he needed me to be. I give a lot of credit to Peter for this. Because, if he hadn't left me, I might never have left him. I'm the type of person that stays around long after the expiration date on a relationship has passed. This is partly due [...]

4 05, 2019

Sex, Love and Obesity Part 31 – I Wasn’t Who He Wanted Me To Be

By |2019-05-04T16:59:08-04:00May 4th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In Sex Love and Obesity Part 30 - my finding out that Peter was having in an "innocent" online affair several months prior to us breaking up became a game changer for me. I felt betrayed. As a result, I started seeing Peter's love for me through a different perspective. I was depressed. Colder. Less affectionate. The rest of August is a big blur to me. Peter was trying hard to [...]

22 04, 2019

Sex, Love and Obesity – Part 30 When The Mask Shattered

By |2019-04-23T15:56:19-04:00April 22nd, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

When we left of in Sex Love and Obesity Part 29 my new boyfriend's comment about Peter being a Narcissist lead me to start researching the subject. As a result, a lot of the experiences I had with Peter began making more sense. If you had told me someone was a Narcissist prior to this, I would have instantly thought of someone who is vain about their appearance. Someone who spends a lot of [...]

15 04, 2019

Sex, Love and Obesity Part 29 – Finding The Courage To Speak My Truths

By |2019-04-15T07:52:30-04:00April 15th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In Sex Love and Obesity Part 28 - We left off with Peter and I getting back together. It was a mistake. One big giant mistake that I would never take back. Yes, you read that correctly. It was a mistake I don't regret making. I have no regrets. Because, if I hadn't made the choice to go back to Peter and gone through the next several months with him, I don't think I [...]

8 04, 2019

Sex Love and Obesity Part 28 – A Jealous Little Fishy

By |2019-04-11T01:53:00-04:00April 8th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In Sex Love and Obesity part 27 I talked about the stupidest mistake I ever made. Calling Peter and asking him to come over. Looking back on it now, I realize how idiotic it was. But only because almost two years of learning more about myself and reclaiming my self-confidence has provided the necessary insight. About a week after making that phone Peter and I were officially back together. But before I tell that [...]

31 03, 2019

Sex, Love and Obesity Part 27 – The Stupidest Thing I Could Have Done

By |2019-03-31T10:35:08-04:00March 31st, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In Sex, Love and Obesity Part 26 I finally decided that I was going to find the courage to move out on my own. I was facing one of the biggest fears of my life. It was literally the scariest thing I've ever done. I cannot even begin to explain why being on my own was so frightening to me. But when you think about it, it's not hard to figure out. If you [...]

13 03, 2019

Sex, Love and Obesity Part 26 – Why Didn’t You Fight For Me?

By |2019-03-13T14:50:54-04:00March 13th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

When we left of in Sex, Love and Obesity part 25 I was at a place where I began to recognize the pattern. Having too many loose threads in my life and too many possible love interests was making my already difficult struggle regaining control of my Dissociative Identity Disorder even harder. Although I recognized the pattern, fixing it wasn’t as easy as it would seem. For me to start tying up loose ends, parts of [...]

4 03, 2019

Sex Love and Obesity Part 25 – Unraveling At The Seams

By |2019-03-04T12:43:48-04:00March 4th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In Sex, Love and Obesity Part 24 I discussed a relapse into my pleasure-seeking behaviors that happened while I was at a weight loss convention in Portland trying to deal with all the loose strings that existed in my life. Think of the life you live as a sweater that you wear. Mine had a lot of loose strings. If I didn't find a way to deal with them surely one of them was [...]

25 02, 2019

Sex, Love and Obesity Part 24 – Using Sex as a Drug

By |2019-03-03T10:02:51-04:00February 25th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In Sex Love and Obesity Part 23 I had a major slip in my decision making while attending a convention in Portland. In that moment, albeit unintentionally, I had lit a match to my life. The decisions I made in this over emotional state would quite literally start to burn down everything around me. I didn't recognize it yet but using sex as a go-to feel better drug was a problem. Let's [...]