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11 02, 2019

Sex Love and Obesity Part 22 – Dysfunctionally Dissociative

By |2019-03-03T10:14:55-04:00February 11th, 2019|My Story, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

Understanding Dissociative Identity Disorder and Dysfunctional Dissociation  When we left off in Sex Love and Obesity Part 21, my entire life when it came to sex, love and decisions that involved those two things was unraveling at the seams. Every part of me was going in a different direction. Each part of me wanted something distinctly different. If you read my Dissociative Identity Disorder - Six Women One Mind blog, you'll understand [...]

4 02, 2019

Grief. Recovering from aftershocks.

By |2019-02-04T14:58:52-04:00February 4th, 2019|My Story, Bariatric Wellness, Life After Weight Loss|0 Comments

Grief can literally knock the wind right out of you. Grief is a hard emotion to deal with. Dealing with loss is difficult, we all do it in our own way. The strange thing about grief is that it sneaks up on you in little ways you're not expecting. When it does, it can knock the breath right out of you. This past Friday afternoon I found myself huddled on the floor [...]

28 10, 2018

The Finality of Death

By |2018-12-10T15:18:34-04:00October 28th, 2018|My Story, Bariatric Wellness, Life After Weight Loss|0 Comments

You never forget the moment you meet someone. I was living with my Godfather after my previous relationship had left me basically homeless. I was hanging out in Gorean chat rooms online. The chat rooms consisted of people who role played scenarios out of the 1960s John Norman Gor Novels and discussed the Master / slave philosophy that existed within those books. I had become friends with many of the participants of these chat rooms. [...]

21 10, 2018

Sex Love and Obesity Part 21

By |2018-11-10T10:26:18-04:00October 21st, 2018|My Story, Bariatric Wellness, Sex, Love & Obesity|0 Comments

In “Sex, Love and Obesity Part 20,” I talked about the day I finally got in my car and drove away. I was out of the house now, and the change in my stress and anxiety levels allowed me to stop turning to drugs and alcohol as coping mechanisms and escape. Last week, in “Dissociative Identity Disorder – Six Women One Mind,” I tried to paint you a clear picture of how my system works [...]

12 10, 2018

Dissociative Identity Disorder – Six Women One Mind

By |2018-11-10T10:15:34-04:00October 12th, 2018|My Story, Bariatric Wellness|0 Comments

For people with Dissociative Identity Disorder dealing with fear can be a very uncomfortable experience. Fear is a powerful emotion. It can motivate you to start invoking change very quickly. But the problem is that fear isn’t always rational; which means it can lead you to make irrational decisions if it is the underlying emotion driving your actions. In Sex, Love and Obesity Part 20 I moved out of the apartment. I ran away to [...]

5 10, 2018

Sex Love and Obesity – Part 20

By |2018-11-10T10:06:24-04:00October 5th, 2018|My Story, Bariatric Wellness, Life After Weight Loss|0 Comments

In Sex, Love and Obesity Part 19 - I had gotten in my car and drove away. Have you ever dated someone who brings out the worst in you? It’s like a strange chemical reaction that you can’t explain. It’s like having two typical household items underneath your bathroom sink. Bleach and Vinegar. Singularly they are both safe, non-toxic products.  But mix them together and now you’ve got a dangerous chlorine gas that can cause [...]

16 09, 2018

Sex Love and Obesity Part 19

By |2018-10-05T09:19:56-04:00September 16th, 2018|My Story, Bariatric Wellness, Life After Weight Loss|0 Comments

In Sex Love and Obesity Part 18 I talked about the fight that Peter and I had that sent me over the edge. At this point I didn’t care if he loved me. I didn’t even care if nobody else ever loved me. It didn’t matter that I loved him anymore. It didn’t matter how much I loved him. It didn’t matter that the sex was once amazing. At that point I really didn’t care [...]

9 09, 2018

Sex Love and Obesity Part 18

By |2018-12-12T18:06:52-04:00September 9th, 2018|My Story, Bariatric Wellness, Life After Weight Loss|0 Comments

In Sex Love and Obesity Part 17 I had drawn a line in the sand. I had clearly told Peter that if the fighting and arguments didn’t stop and if I continued to feel emotionally abused in the relationship I was going to leave. You know how they say perception is reality? That was so true here. His perception was that we didn’t fight that much. That there were more good times than there [...]

3 09, 2018

Sex Love and Obesity Part 17

By |2018-09-03T09:14:26-04:00September 3rd, 2018|My Story, Bariatric Wellness, Life After Weight Loss|0 Comments

In Sex Love and Obesity Part 16 I told you that I had hit the proverbial rock-bottom. Sometimes you THINK you are at rock-bottom, then something happens, and you suddenly go “Oh, No, okay, THIS is rock-bottom.” You think it can’t possibly get any worse; then it does. We’re going to fast forward a little bit. January goes by. February comes and about a week before I am about to leave for an all girls trip to [...]

2 09, 2018

Sex Love and Obesity Part 16

By |2018-09-02T16:03:09-04:00September 2nd, 2018|My Story, Bariatric Wellness, Life After Weight Loss|0 Comments

In Sex Love and Obesity Part 15 I discussed how I had found myself in a relationship where I pretty much felt emotionally abused and emotionally blackmailed. I stayed because the sex was amazing and because I was so desperate for someone to “love” me that I didn’t have the courage to walk away. I want to take a moment to clarify here, this was as much my fault as it was his. While there is no [...]