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Comfort Food is just so… Comforting

Fall is here, it’s showing outside more and more the autumn colors and falling leaves, things are getting wetter, and I’m enjoying it, though I’m not sure how much more outdoor exercise time I have before things start getting too wet to be out running in it, I’ve never exercised outdoor in poor weather. I’m willing to brave some sprinkles and light showers, not sure I can run in an all-out down poor thought. I’m going to have to ask some of my other WLS friends that like to exercise outdoors what they do during bad weather, maybe there are better running shoes I can get, what I can’t get is another broken ankle to set me back, and the way mine is aching this evening, I’m sort of feeling like it needs a day off. I’m getting back to that phase where exercise is my outlet again, though I’ve had to work myself back into that after the setback in July and August when my Father passed away and I broke my ankle. Crutches and an air cast for 8 weeks sucked.

Today was supposed to be my mid-week exercise day, a day I take it a little easier than I do on Tuesdays and Thursdays when I’m doing sprints and Mondays and Fridays when I’m working with my Trainer Suzie. But really, I got bored on my walk, soon as I hit the paved trail I was going to walk on for another 1.5 miles I started thinking, well yesterday I did sprints here walked the paved trail and then did sprints back, what if I did the opposite today, that would get me a little less running time, more walking time, so less intense, for me that is. I’m not one of those people that can run an entire 3-5 miles, someday I hope I will be though. Once I had decided to do that, I thought to myself, well I wonder if I can run for 3 minutes on and 2 minutes off instead of my normal 2 minutes on and 3 minutes off. When I realized I could do that, and had done that for the 1.5 miles and was back at the beginning of the paved trail, I decided to start heading home and decided I’d just run and see how long I could do that for. 5 minutes, now running to me is probably jogging to most people, but it’s something I’ve never done before and something I’m excited about.

I’m sipping on a warm cup of Earl Grey Cream tea from Teavana as I write this evening, waiting for laundry to finish so I can throw exercise clothes in and jump in the shower.  A couple squirts of Torani, SF Brown Sugar Cinnamon Syrup and a couple tablespoons of Sugar Free Coffee matte makes my tea one of the most enjoyable moments of the day. I love tea, love it. A couple cups of tea in the afternoon is one of the ways I trick myself into not turning to food for emotional boredom or eating. With the 30/30 rule, which I admit, I fail on a lot, I do a lot better on the 30 minutes after rather than the 30 minutes prior, but it’s a rule I am trying to pay a lot more attention to now that I am getting closer to goal and struggling with the thought that I’ve got 1-6 months at best left in that “Honeymoon Phase” that everyone talks about and worried I won’t get things done in time.

Lunch today was a Turkey Sandwich on a 110 Calorie Multi Grain Bagel thin with a wedge of Laughing Cow Cheese, some fresh chives, a slice of tomatoes and some 97% Fat Free Turkey. I should have eaten left overs, but eating during the day is always a chore for me, it’s something I have to do, not something I ever really want to do. I look forward to dinner and my evening treat though.

Tonight I’ll be reheating a cabbage roll from the batch my Mother made when she was visiting last month. There where so many left overs that I froze about a half of dozen of them in a big batch to use up when Heather and Ashli come to visit next month and the other two I froze in single servings for a night just like this, when I wanted something warm, comforting, healthy and close to home. I’ve got to get my mom’s recipe for those cabbage rolls and post them on the site; I was amazed how WLS friendly it was once we yanked out all those potatoes. We added some turnips, leeks and organic yellow carrots and it came out absolutely fantastic, I’d like to try it with replacing some of the potatoes with huge chunks of elephant garlic, but my Mom wasn’t on board with that one. I’m excited to heat it up tonight, those cabbage rolls are one of the things my Mom does for me every time she visits or I visit that makes me feel spoiled, and reminds me how much she loves me. I’ll think of her tonight as I’m enjoying it!

I’m going to be making my first attempt at Protein Ice Cream tonight, a concept that is a huge trademark of Shelly’s over at The World According to Eggface, but I’ll be changing it up just a little bit based on what flavor I want and what sort of stuff is available in the kitchen, I’m after pumpkin, I’ll let you all know how it goes! I might even take pictures. Now if only I could figure out how to post pictures to my blog from my phone … maybe I should make a Facebook Page, put all my food porn there instead and find some sort of little widget that will post my Facebook status messages on the blog. Something to consider…

Right now I need to consider a much needed shower!

An Inspirational Internet Muse…

I need to start blogging again, why I haven’t been is irrelevant at this point, well not completely, but it is stuff I need to put behind me and get back to what I need to do. Shelly over at The World According to Eggface as usual found a way to motivate me without even realizing it! Another super snazzy give away and an extra chance to win if I blog about her contest, amazing that is all it took to get me to write here again eh?

I’m a big Fan of Celebrate Vitamins, and since it is all stuff I use anyways, getting a free package of vitamins could be a little extra money in the savings account towards the skin surgery I’m looking at come the first part of next year, hey every little bit helps. I’ve linked to Shelly’s site for ages, if you ask me she is hands down on of the most inspirational bloggers in the WLS community online. And she actually responds to stuff you write to her and say to her which is more than I can say for a lot of WLS Bloggers and Community “Leaders” I won’t mention by name.

So rather than talking about why I haven’t been posting, which I am sure I will at some point or another I just need to be in the right mood and the right frame of mind.  So, first we’re going to start back with the basics, today the basics are … head over to The World According to Eggface and enter Shelly’s Celebrate Vitamin give away contest!

As for where I am and how I am doing, I’m currently at 201lbs and trying to chase that infamous “Onderland” before my 12 month anniversary on October 19th – that’s my next goal. I met with the skin removal surgeon back in July and will see him again in January to reassess where I am and see where we think I need to be before we progress with body reconstruction surgery.  How I’m going to finance all that is absolutely beyond comprehension right now, and a huge stress factor in my life.

To add insult to injury I am still struggling to quit smoking again. I quite for 6 months prior to surgery and three months after, but my life since January has been one knockdown after another and having loss food as a coping mechanism I picked those cigarettes back up in a jiffy and now, it’s even harder to quit because I don’t have Chantix on my side.  For those wondering why, let me just say that taking Chantix after Gastric Bypass, was for me, worse than dumping syndrome. It caused me excruciating pain and discomfort and nausea for about 45 minutes after taking it, made me feel horrible and didn’t seem to work AT ALL. I’ve tried the patch, can’t chew gum, and yet again I have to quit to be eligible for both the skin removal surgery and the dental implant surgery that I want to get done…  the term “FML” comes to mind though I will be PC and not actually say it aloud, or in text.

I’m exercising. I’m still addicted to it, though I’ve had a lot of time “Off” dealing with what life has handed me in the last 10 months. For those that don’t know my Father had a stroke in January just a couple months after my surgery, and he was a HUGE, HUGE part of my reasons for deciding to change my life. I spent 3 months in California from January to March, with very little time in the Gym as I dealt with personal family issues and tried to make sure that what time my Father had left was the best I could make it. That time off, and all the changes going on in my life, sort of messed with my head a bit, I’ve got a lot to share with you are as far as co-addiction, addiction transferal and a lot to share with you about this overwhelming feeling of failure I experienced when my Father passed away before I could reach my goal weight, but that’s all for another time, when I can write about it all with the detail it deserves and not feel like I’m opening fresh wounds too early.

I plan on updating the Timeline and Weight Track Monitor in the next couple of days, and you all should see some more regular posts from me again.  I’ve got some other great stuff to tell you all about, but a little at a time to start so this doesn’t end up triggering me into an emotional roller coaster I’m not ready for.

Thanks Shelly, for getting me to write again, sometimes a little inspiration and an internet muse is all it takes, wish you lived closer, I’d love to take you out for a skinny latte!

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