You never forget the moment you meet someone. I was living with my Godfather after my previous relationship had left me basically homeless. I was hanging out in Gorean chat rooms online. The chat rooms consisted of people who role played scenarios out of the 1960s John Norman Gor Novels and discussed the Master / slave philosophy that existed within those books. I had become friends with many of the participants of these chat rooms. [...]
Six months ago, in the beginning of April I told you that I was breaking my silence and returning to blogging. Alongside that, in the "This is #MyBariLife" blog, I announced that thanks to the good folks over at I was going to get the opportunity to not only find my voice again, but to try to gain back something else that I had lost over the course of the last year and a half, my love of [...]
In Sex, Love and Obesity Part 19 - I had gotten in my car and drove away. Have you ever dated someone who brings out the worst in you? It’s like a strange chemical reaction that you can’t explain. It’s like having two typical household items underneath your bathroom sink. Bleach and Vinegar. Singularly they are both safe, non-toxic products. But mix them together and now you’ve got a dangerous chlorine gas that can cause [...]
If you have ever suffered from obesity you’ve probably had the experience of laying in bed at night thinking about all the things you would do and how different your life would be if you were not “fat”. Yes, I said “fat”. Let’s be honest, it is the word we use in our head when we beat ourselves up emotionally for suffering from this disease. I can’t tell you how many times I laid in [...]
In Sex Love and Obesity Part 18 I talked about the fight that Peter and I had that sent me over the edge. At this point I didn’t care if he loved me. I didn’t even care if nobody else ever loved me. It didn’t matter that I loved him anymore. It didn’t matter how much I loved him. It didn’t matter that the sex was once amazing. At that point I really didn’t care [...]
Four months ago, after a yearlong hiatus I decided it was time to take back my run. Prior to my break, running had been therapeutic for me. It had been my means of emotionally escaping the world when I didn’t want to deal with whatever was going on in it. Running had been where I found comfort when trying to deal with the grief of losing my father. It was where I found peace and [...]
In Sex Love and Obesity Part 17 I had drawn a line in the sand. I had clearly told Peter that if the fighting and arguments didn’t stop and if I continued to feel emotionally abused in the relationship I was going to leave. You know how they say perception is reality? That was so true here. His perception was that we didn’t fight that much. That there were more good times than there [...]
Transformation. The word makes most people think of change in form or appearance. But, transformations come in many fashions. Four months ago, I announced in my "#ThisIsMyBariLife" post that thanks to the good folks over at , I was going to back to Paris to run in the annual Paris Run Disney Half Marathon Weekend. I had stop running entirely for almost a whole year. My last half marathon had been back in May of 2016 [...]
In Sex Love and Obesity Part 16 I told you that I had hit the proverbial rock-bottom. Sometimes you THINK you are at rock-bottom, then something happens, and you suddenly go “Oh, No, okay, THIS is rock-bottom.” You think it can’t possibly get any worse; then it does. We’re going to fast forward a little bit. January goes by. February comes and about a week before I am about to leave for an all girls trip to [...]
In Sex Love and Obesity Part 15 I discussed how I had found myself in a relationship where I pretty much felt emotionally abused and emotionally blackmailed. I stayed because the sex was amazing and because I was so desperate for someone to “love” me that I didn’t have the courage to walk away. I want to take a moment to clarify here, this was as much my fault as it was his. While there is no [...]
