I had my pre-opt consultation with the surgeon today. My surgeons name is Dr. Cagle with Southwest Medical Group Surgical Specialists in Vancouver, WA. Dr. Cagle spent a good deal of time with us discussing the surgery, going over the risks, and basically making sure that Jason and I both understood the procedure and making sure that we didn’t have any questions.
Most of what she discussed I remembered from the Seminar that she had given that I attended back in June, I didn’t expect to get a tentative surgery date today, but I did, they gave me a tentative date of October 19th, so long as the insurance pre-authorization goes through and told me that they would call me and let me know when that happened.
The one thing Dr. Cagle did tell me that was a bit disappointing was that she was pretty sure that I would have issues with excess skin. I was hoping somewhere deep down inside that I was still young enough that something like that wouldn’t be a huge problem, but apparently I was fooling myself there, I’m not sure how I feel about that right now, I mean, the reality is, that I have a life full of people that love me for me, regardless of my weight, and that’s a wonderful feeling. The big motivator for me in starting this journey wasn’t just about what I look like, it was about what I feel like, it was about wanting to be healthy, it was about wanting to improve the quality and duration of my life.
The excess skin thing scares me, that’s no lie, it makes me wonder if I’m not trading one ugly thing for the next, and I can’t help but thing that while I will come of this healthier in the end, that my body will look like it thirty or forty years ahead of me with all the sagging loose and wrinkly skin. One thing at a time I suppose, but I think the worst is ahead of me, they told me that I need to start the all milk diet four weeks before surgery.
What’s the all milk diet you ask? Well, it’s just what it sounds like, an all milk diet, you get no food, and nothing to drink other than milk and low/non caloric beverages like Crystal Light, Water, Propel, Herbal Tea, Decaffeinated Coffee & Tea and stuff like Vitamin Water Zero and Sobee Lifewater. Something tells me this is going to be the most miserable month of my life, I’m not looking forward to it, in fact, I’m terrified that this is the part of this journey I won’t be able to accomplish and won’t be able to stay in compliance with.
For the first time since I started this, I’m scared, really scared.