It never is right? There is a saying by Aldous Huxley, no clue who that is, I’ll have to do some research, but they said “Hell isn’t merely paved with good intentions; its walled and roofed with them. Yes, furnished too.”

That’s how I feel, of course, I realize that I’ve failed to actually keep up with my good intentions, but I’m ready to re-direct. Let me explain what happens a bit, because I think this happens to a lot of people… pre-op my entire focus was on weight loss and surgery and doing what I needed to do to get the weight off. It was easy for me to sit here for hours and hours each day, reading anything I could find online about weight loss, weight loss surgery, and such. I spent a ton of time on WLS forums, talking back and forth with people, learning from them, trying to help the newer members of the community. I took pictures of my food, and I tried to share every detail of my life, from food intake to exercise to medical information, then suddenly life started happening to me, my Father and passed away and keeping up on a daily blog seemed really unimportant when what I wanted my focus on was being out living life.

Life for me today is so different, I’m getting ready to start posting actual photos with my blogs, like pictures of me… LOL this is an amazing feat for me let me tell you, at first I had no intentions of posting pictures of myself accept maybe the obligatory before and after, but I’m finding now that I’m more willing to put myself out there, that probably has something to do with the fact that I don’t weight 420lbs anymore eh?

I’ve decided to start making blogging more of a focus for me, because quite honestly I just don’t think that there are enough people out there that keep up with it after they have their surgery and lose their weight and I know that I still have a ton of questions on a daily basis, things I’m looking for answers for on the way out.

Running is my new thing, for those of you that don’t know. I had to take a break from working with my Trainer Suzie from Tym 4 Me Fitness because of Financial reasons, I’m getting very very close to having plastics and the financial devastation that is about to cause our household is something I feel terrible guilty over, the fact that my Family is ready and willing to make so many sacrifices in order to help me get my life back and move forward with my goals brings tears to my eyes. So in lieu of working out with Suzie I’ve picked up running. I’m currently in the process of doing a couch to 5k training program, even though it’s a little too easy for me. I’ll tell you all about the App later when I’ve had some time to use it and decide what I think. Today’s work out was amazing though I was out the door at 9am, never thought I’d see the day that I was eager to go outside and exercise when it was 37 degrees outside, but here it was. I walked for a bit, did a 1.5 mile run and then did the week 1 day 1 session for the couch to 5k trainer and walked home for just a little over 5 miles total distance. I’m trying to work up to 7 miles a day right now, I’ll get there 😀

Alas, my protein infused hot chocolate, which consists of 2 cups of So Delicious Mint Chocolate Coconut Milk warmed up to give you that Christmas feel and then about half a serving of Protein Powder mixed in with a whisk, is about gone and it is time to get my day started. The Hot Chocolate definitely has me feeling warm and fuzzy inside I think I’ll throw on some Christmas music, try to clear my desk of some projects and get a little house work done before lunch.