When I am sad, depressed or stressed out I get withdrawn and quiet. Like most of you, these are emotions I don't deal with well. When I start to experience these emotions I instantly think, "I have to be really careful that I don't start feeding my feelings." Because, if I don't, I know I am just a few Twinkies away from weighing over 400 lbs. again. It might seem like a [...]
It's time for a product review! This month we're going to be talking about the . Because, I am an honest WLS Blogger; I'll admit that I am remiss in getting this review published. As usual, you have great intentions, then life happens and other things sort of take priority. This product review as slated for October. But, I was suddenly dealing with the passing of my late ex-husband. However, that has [...]
In case you don't know this, I consider myself an Obesity Rebel. A Rebel, is someone who rises in opposition or armed resistance against. An Obesity Rebel is someone who opposes obesity. I firmly believe that obesity is a disease. There are some people who would argue and debate that with me. In fact, we've been debating whether obesity is a disease quite heatedly for over a decade. Regardless of anyone's opinion, [...]
Let’s take a break from all the seriousness. I know I need one. Not to mention I still owe you all a very important Disneyland Paris Half Marathon event recap. I’ve ran a lot of half marathons. Forty-one to be exact. By far, my all-time favorite half marathons are the runDisney events. If you ask me, which you sort of did by coming to read my blog, this is appropriate. Because, for [...]
You never forget the moment you meet someone. I was living with my Godfather after my previous relationship had left me basically homeless. I was hanging out in Gorean chat rooms online. The chat rooms consisted of people who role played scenarios out of the 1960s John Norman Gor Novels and discussed the Master / slave philosophy that existed within those books. I had become friends with many of the participants of these chat rooms. [...]
In “Sex, Love and Obesity Part 20,” I talked about the day I finally got in my car and drove away. I was out of the house now, and the change in my stress and anxiety levels allowed me to stop turning to drugs and alcohol as coping mechanisms and escape. Last week, in “Dissociative Identity Disorder – Six Women One Mind,” I tried to paint you a clear picture of how my system works [...]
For people with Dissociative Identity Disorder dealing with fear can be a very uncomfortable experience. Fear is a powerful emotion. It can motivate you to start invoking change very quickly. But the problem is that fear isn’t always rational; which means it can lead you to make irrational decisions if it is the underlying emotion driving your actions. In Sex, Love and Obesity Part 20 I moved out of the apartment. I ran away to [...]
Six months ago, in the beginning of April I told you that I was breaking my silence and returning to blogging. Alongside that, in the "This is #MyBariLife" blog, I announced that thanks to the good folks over at I was going to get the opportunity to not only find my voice again, but to try to gain back something else that I had lost over the course of the last year and a half, my love of [...]
In Sex, Love and Obesity Part 19 - I had gotten in my car and drove away. Have you ever dated someone who brings out the worst in you? It’s like a strange chemical reaction that you can’t explain. It’s like having two typical household items underneath your bathroom sink. Bleach and Vinegar. Singularly they are both safe, non-toxic products. But mix them together and now you’ve got a dangerous chlorine gas that can cause [...]
If you have ever suffered from obesity you’ve probably had the experience of laying in bed at night thinking about all the things you would do and how different your life would be if you were not “fat”. Yes, I said “fat”. Let’s be honest, it is the word we use in our head when we beat ourselves up emotionally for suffering from this disease. I can’t tell you how many times I laid in [...]
