Okay so let’s be honest, as a morbidly obese person, birthdays meant one thing to me; cake. Okay two things; cake & presents. Now growing up in a religious household where Birthdays and Holidays were not celebrated I can honestly tell you that I’ve never had a real birthday party, growing up I got sneaky birthday presents on the sly from my Grandmother until she passed away when I was eight, and later in High [...]
There are so many things I want to rant about today. But let’s face it, there comes a time when the things we need to rant about are too personal to share on the internet. Not because I’m afraid to put it out there or ashamed of it or anything like that, but simply because the drama of me doing so isn’t worth it. Let’s just say I don’t come from the most functional family. [...]
I’m convinced that I am one of those people where if there is the slightest chance that something will go wrong, with me it does. The reality is that it’s never anything too serious, nothing life threatening or anything like that, but I’m definitely learning that plastic surgery, excess skin removal surgery and the whole reconstructive plastic surgery thing is not for the faint of heart. Today I am three weeks and three days out [...]
I think I have reached the end of my proverbial rope. Nobody seems to get it or understand it and for the first time in my life, ever, I am looking at the people around me that have been my support system all the way through this and I’m starting to ask myself if we’re just in totally different places in our lives right now or what happened, but my relationships, with everyone right now [...]
When you start a blog like this you have every intention on keeping up with it. They suddenly you realize how much of this journey is emotional, personal, and a times, so private that you can’t really share it. I’ve spent the last year and a half running and it’s time for me to finally stop, stand still and remind myself that right now, at this moment, my Family has decided this is the time [...]
Two weeks and three out of my first set of skin removal surgeries as a part of my body reconstruction after losing 245lbs I can’t really say in honestly that if I could do it all over again I would, this part is a lot harder, a lot more painful and a lot more of a mind bender than I ever expected. First let’s talk numbers. Because I’m a scale whore, I’m on the scale [...]
My hips, outer thighs, calves and feet, are all flipping me the bird this morning. I rolled over in bed and went, oh dear god what have I done to my body? Then I remembered, oh yeah I walked/ran almost 15 miles in two days. It’s December 24th, mine and Jason’s wedding anniversary. We’ve been married 8 years today. Sure doesn’t seem like that long ago. I so distinctly remember waking up that morning, being [...]
It’s the holiday season, things are crazy, and finding time to do everything I am supposed to do and add in Christmas Shopping, present wrapping, cleaning the house to get it company ready and all that… just wow. Life is stressing me out right now, a lot. I’ve found my focus in exercise, running seems to help me open up my mind, clear my head, and since the beginning it’s made me feel like my [...]
It never is right? There is a saying by Aldous Huxley, no clue who that is, I’ll have to do some research, but they said “Hell isn’t merely paved with good intentions; its walled and roofed with them. Yes, furnished too.” That’s how I feel, of course, I realize that I’ve failed to actually keep up with my good intentions, but I’m ready to re-direct. Let me explain what happens a bit, because I think [...]
Fall is here, it’s showing outside more and more the autumn colors and falling leaves, things are getting wetter, and I’m enjoying it, though I’m not sure how much more outdoor exercise time I have before things start getting too wet to be out running in it, I’ve never exercised outdoor in poor weather. I’m willing to brave some sprinkles and light showers, not sure I can run in an all-out down poor thought. I’m [...]
